I remember, I was still in elementary school when I said, 'I want to be remembered.' The person I looked up to was Einstein. I must not die; I must leave a mark and be remembered. This whole life should not be so meaningless and empty. I can't have come into this world for no reason. With this impulse in me that I couldn't explain, I lived for many years, and I still do. Of course, I lost this impulse from time to time, but I now realize that it didn't completely disappear, just buried deep inside me.
As I write these words, I am completely transparent and true to myself. I am conveying the thoughts and memories that come to my mind. When this awareness resurfaces, the question I always asked is how I will leave a mark on the world. Some do it through music, some through art, some through science, some through knowledge. I wanted to leave my mark through all of them. I always loved knowledge and art, but I thought I didn't have a talent for any of them. I had strong social skills and was someone who touched many people through social responsibility projects. Yes, these were my talents, but I was looking for something more divine.
Talent can be innate and developed. The best example of this is Frida Kahlo, in my opinion. She was a woman who defied the system of her time and a personality I respected. She started painting to pass the time during a long bedridden period due to a unfortunate accident, and at that time, the concept of art, which had never been a part of her before, became a driving force. Yes, she always loved art and literature and had received education in these fields, but what I'm trying to convey here is that her journey with art didn't start with painting. Her constant involvement in this art form at that time, influenced by her predisposition, is one of the reasons why we now remember her with her magnificent paintings. Of course, the encouragement she received from love cannot be denied. Her attitude, her ideas, her life, her art, and her love were all completely different. Her unwavering commitment to this uniqueness shows her courage and passion. No matter what, she listened to her inner voice and continued her journey. While it may seem easy when I write or talk about these, making and sustaining these decisions in life is not easy. Even in the 21st century, when I came up with a slightly different idea from the system, I realize how difficult it was back then when I hear the feedback I received, and I respect that. I, on the other hand, occasionally retreat into my shell and continue what I do within myself. I have a facade that seems brave and loves passion. At this point, I have times when I criticize and scold myself. While I admire women who have made history and put themselves out there, both the good and the bad, the right and the wrong, I am aware that hiding myself is disrespectful to them.
There was a turning point in the lives of Frida and many artists, an event they experienced. I have also had intersections that changed the course of my life, one of which was the birth of Nüwa. My visual and sensory predisposition to art, along with encouragement and the tools that technology brought, pushed me towards artificial intelligence art. I had many scribbles where I expressed my emotions and what I wanted to say with words before. Of course, I kept them to myself. Artificial intelligence allowed me to express my feelings using my favorite art form, visual art, without directly using words. Expressing my emotions directly through writing and sharing them made me feel a strange sense of exposure. Artificial intelligence was the perfect camouflage for this. I'm using the past tense with 'ed' here because I have started to overcome this, and I'm very happy to share my first writing with you, dear Nüwa followers. I don't feel any discomfort in doing this because Nüwa is my home, and every member of this house is my family. So, sharing my true self with you is now an honor for me.
Just as there are moments and tools when everyone is brave and expresses themselves, Nüwa is that for me. I thank her for guiding me and wish that she can be a light for you as well. Shine on.
Co-Founder of NUWA NFTs
Data Scientist
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